Where Mystery and Miracle Intertwine

This is a poignant time for me. For thirty-eight days, from January 1-- the day my son Graham went missing, and we later learned, the day he fell through the frozen lake-- until February 7, when we ultimately located and retrieved his body, I mark each 5-year anniversary with ritual and remembrance.

January 20 was the day my friend Heather prayed with me for Graham to be found. I had nearly canceled, but something—or someone—told me I needed to be there. It feels like mystery and miracle were intertwined, the first spark of momentum that changed everything.

January 22 marked my meeting with the psychic medium Heather guided me to, Kelle Sutliff. I was very skeptical, yet the confidence and clarity with which Kelle prayed, invoked spirit, and shared what emerged quickly erased my skepticism. She confirmed what I already knew in my heart—that my precious son was in spirit. And she named three people by name, along with my mom, who were with him.

Kelle went on to offer insights that led us to begin a search of our own. As I have listened and relistened to the recording of that session, I remain astonished by the accuracy of what she shared: that there had been an accident, that Graham was in water, within a few miles of his home, in a place he went for peace and meditation; that we would find a boot; and that the name “Blue Heron” was significant.

She channeled Graham himself—expressing his deep love and sorrow, while also assuring us that he was well, “with all these beautiful souls on the other side… in God’s love.” In the very moment I learned my son was in spirit, I also heard from him, unmistakably, expressing his love.

She instructed us to form our own search team. And somehow, miraculously, that team appeared. Friends, family, neighbors, and perfect strangers came forward. Volunteer serac-and-rescue dogs, divers, and helpers of every kind seemed to be called to us.

Together, our team prayed, trekked miles of terrain, waded through and broke the ice of frozen waters, dove into the icy lake, launched drones overhead, and turned over every stone imaginable.

No doubt, it was a grueling process. And yet, with each passing day, we drew closer--closer to answers, closer to Graham--and with each step forward, our determination grew. Each day carried its own expressions of love, service, and blessing.

Looking back now, I am utterly amazed by how it all unfolded. There is, simply, no earthly explanation. It could only have been divinely orchestrated—spirit-led.

For me, marking these days with remembrance and ritual brings an ever-deepening sense of understanding. I am able to make meaning of what happened. I am able to access gratitude at a deeper level, and my faith continues to grow. I am called, evermore, to listen—to spirit, to divine direction.

That calling is exactly what led me into the grief work and training I have pursued over the past five years. It is what led me to birth the Sacred Journey With Grief Retreat.

Each journey with grief is unique and deeply personal. Each is significant and varied, because grief itself takes many forms—not only the loss of a loved one to death. We grieve many kinds of losses, and we also carry collective grief for the world during times of crisis and profound upheaval. Yet every journey with grief holds the potential to be sacred.

When we witness our journeys together—when we create space for ritual, remembrance, and ceremony—we find hope and uncover opportunities for meaning-making and transformation. Together, as we hold and honor our pain, love and faith deepen and grow.

We depart for Belize in just two short weeks. I find it no accident that our Sacred Journey in Belize begins on February 8—the day after the anniversary of when we retrieved Graham’s body. It marks the beginning of this journey together, just as it once marked the beginning of my own Sacred Journey—one of honoring my grief and the transformation that followed.

Registration has been extended to welcome two additional participants for February 8–15, 2026, and we also have a highly deserving scholarship applicant eager to attend. We would be honored to walk this sacred journey alongside you. Flights, for now, are surprisingly still quite reasonably priced.

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