My story
Mindful Metamorphoses was born from my own sacred, life-altering journey with grief.
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While I had known loss throughout the first sixty years of my life, particulary with the loss of my mom at the tender age of 12, nothing compared to the soul-deep rupture I experienced when my 30-year-old son, Graham, went missing on New Year’s Day, 2021. What followed was an unimaginable unfolding. After 21 agonizing days without answers, I reached out—desperately—to a psychic medium. Though skeptical at first, I quickly became convinced that her connection with my son was real. Through her, Graham helped guide us to his body in the frozen lake into which he had fallen.
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That moment marked the beginning of a profound transformation. Rather than follow cultural expectations to “move on,” I was called to live with my grief—fully, consciously, and authentically. My grief became not only something to survive, but something sacred to honor. My relationship with my son continued, not in the way I had known, but in a new and ongoing form—through spirit, memory, and presence.
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This deep commitment to my grief became the nourishment I laid before me, much as the egg is laid on fertile surface for nourishment. I surrendered to the process. I read, I cycled, I created rituals of remembrance. I biked 30 miles for 38 days—one mile for each year of Graham’s life, and one day for each day he remained in the lake before he was found.
In the caterpillar stage of metamorphosis, growth is slow and consuming. Mine included books, workshops, certifications, and a deepening connection to spirituality and embodiment. Then came the cocoon—the chrysalis stage—where transformation takes place in silence and darkness. Identities fall away. New ones slowly, tenderly begin to form.
It was during this time I found the sacred practices that would guide my path forward: Conscious Grieving©, Induced After Death Communication (IADC), and mindful microdosing. These practices became reverent containers through which I could soften into my sorrow, meet my son in spirit, and embrace both the agony and the awe of life and loss. What the world called tragedy became a profound spiritual initiation.
Not long after my Conscious Grieving© and IADC trainings, and while still in the midst of Microdose Guideship Training, something shifted. I experienced a spontaneous spiritual awakening—an emergence. Clarity came. Purpose became visible. The wings of my metamorphosis began to form.
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Mindful Metamorphoses is the offering that emerged from that cocoon. It is an invitation to honor your own grief as sacred. It is a space to be fully met in your heartbreak and fully held in your healing. It is my deepest honor to walk beside you on your journey—to witness, support, and honor your unique metamorphosis.
